An A to Z of Unself
apartment, flat [əpɑːtmənt]
n a garage for the overnight storage of wage slaves, set up for the economic function of upgrading commodities
• doubles up as a prison in times of systemic crisis
awolden [awəʊldən]
adj & n 1 [descriptive of] that which is familiar yet mysterious, well understood yet at the same time baffling 2 obvious and apparently known to all, yet routinely overlooked and misunderstood
• examples include the sky, the ground, the wind on your face, bushes, other people, the pleasure of music, the quality of eyes and the strange experience of being anything at all
boredom [bɔːdəm]
n 1 the point where the horror of ego-possession first pokes into awareness; engendering a restless desire to think, want, compulsively worry, consume addictive narcotics, wage war, masturbate and manufacture the world system 2 a feedback cue that one’s engagement is half-arsed or that one’s arse is half-engaged 3 the wages of domestication 4 the complaint of the boring
canerated [kanəreɪtɪd]
adj 1 to be prematurely aged through a dissolute life 2 to look like you are wearing a latex suit of your former self
city [sɪti]
n 1 a standardised, sterilised, planned, polluted and ugly fortress which ‘protects’ man and woman from nature—turning it into a foe—degrades their senses—so that they are unable to perceive what they have lost—and reduces human beings, and therefore human relations, to economic functions—pitting them against each other in a terrible battle for resources made scarce by the very prison they’ve built around themselves 2 a large mechanism invented by men to house, transport, feed, create and care for cars
displode [dɪspləʊd]
vb 1 to lay wide one’s field of observation until the observer dissolves into cosmic treacle 2 to feel the edges of self soften into a hazy place where we fiercely radiate 3 to realise that what is happening is a metaphor for yourself 1
egg [ɛg]
n big pulsating, multi-hued and morphing bubble of flavoured vibe that swells and beats around the bellymind, smearing its strange plasma wheresoever it goeth
• under influence of self, egg either inflates to a massive, defensive roman-tortoise or shrinks to a cold, hard solitary split pea in a saucepan
extimacy [ɛkstɪməsi]
n 1 limitless, postmodern condition in which the private and the public have become fused into one, in which there is no inside and no outside 2 the haunting feeling of being simultaneously close to everyone who is far away and far away from everyone you are close to
• coterminous with the death of gender and culture
facecrime [feɪskrʌɪm]
n [having] a facial expression which indicates thoughtcrime (a radical opinion) or heartcrime (a radical feeling)2
• detected and punished instantly in a perfect system
• masks cannot commit facecrime
foreplay [fɔːpleɪ]
n & vb to begin love-making
• starts the moment you wake up; at least 4 hours of active, vibe-fanning or she-delighting per day are required for self-shattering ksli level 4–6 sexual congress
• note; some women require three to five years of foreplay in order to experience a truly devastating orgasm; worth it though
god [gɒd]
n either 1 the living transdimensional (feminine) void manifesting through nature and self (unself / context) or 2 any one of a post-fallen series of superstitious myths based on aspects of nature or self or 3 a supernatural (i.e. unnatural) monotheistic humourless old man, that created the universe, wrote a book, and then buggered off or 4 a fiction or a lie [a myth taken literally] invented by priests or 5 me, me, me (or a synonym of ‘fuck’)
• ‘I love god’, ‘thank you god’ and ‘good morning god’ are, in sense 1, miniature hymns of selfless wonder and, in senses 2-5, the utterances of the deluded and the insane
• ‘do you believe in god?’ is synonymous with ‘do you believe in x?’—i.e. entirely meaningless without first knowing a) what x refers to and b) what is meant by believe
• seen in the stars, felt in the mud
gulag wisdom [ɡuːlaɡwɪzdəm]
n.phr advice useful in prisons, cages, death-camps and technocratic prison worlds
• don’t hope, don’t ask, don’t believe, don’t complain
• the prisoner maintains his humanity by pushing, where possible, against the walls of the prison: the act is less important than the endeavour, because the endeavour is humanity; in a work camp it might mean having a wash, in a locked down world, having a party
holiday [hɒlɪdeɪ]
n 1 two whole weeks of relief from the misery of civilisation 2 a stressful time-filling highly managed gawk
• tends to create impatience, guilt, photos, status anxiety and (like VR) stories that nobody wants to hear
hope [həʊp]
n fear’s PR man
intelligence [ɪntɛlɪdʒəns]
n giving up knowledge
• intelligence is not what you know, but how you behave when you don’t know
javel-implex scale [bʊlmɪtə]
n.phr correlative relationship between the amount that one deceives oneself and the ease with which one is annoyed or offended
• one who scores highly on the javel-implex scale (i.e. a jav) will a) explode with fury upon a hint of criticism b) be surrounded by an enormous brittle egg and c) be totally full of shit
kinertia [kɪnəːʃə]
n 1 to be simultaneously paralysed by emotion and provoked into restless movement by it 2 the never-ending sense that one never seems to quite have enough time while, at the same time, that nothing is ever really happening 3 constant movement at the service of nothing ever changing
language [laŋgwɪdʒ]
n music + metaphor
• originally the meaning and the tonal music of speech actually [and fractically] expressed, or was imprinted with, that which it referred to—just as nose-shape conveyed character or a loved object was stamped with an owner’s atmosphere—then, as the literal self became separated from reality, so words were separated from meaning (both from literal objective meaning and from subjective, qualitative sense; which were, originally, the same thing) as well as from the musical-poetic experience of uttering them, creating the illusion that there is a ‘true’, objective ‘reality’ which word-strings more or less accurately represent
materialism [mətɪərɪəlɪzəm]
n idealism by another name
• we are ‘a materialistic society’; but has any society ever been less aware of matter?
museum [mjuːzɪəm]
n a warehouse for the storage of stolen goods
• similar to gallery [galəri] n small room used to hide art from the big room
nemesis [nɛmɪsɪs]
n tomorrow’s dislikes, created by today’s likes, today’s pains made by yesterday’s pleasures
ostavise, ostavism [ɒstəvʌɪz]
vb & n the process whereby the meaning of words relating to the [quality of the] present moment, which as time speeds up, slips further from our grasp, are surreptitiously shunted away to mean some other time, some other place or something half as good
• e.g. by and by, soon, anon, divine, incredible, wonderful, gay, awesome, etc.
• as time speeds up, nostalgia shrinks, until we end up nostalgic for last week
pabulate [pabjʊleɪt]
vb 1 to work only while being watched 2 to carry out valueless work in order to convey the impression that one is busy 3 undermining your manager or circumventing his diktats while appearing charming, innocent or even simple-minded
pain [peɪn]
n 1 an emotional command from the conscience to walk away, knuckle down or accept the whole situation 2 a physical order from the body to stop or to change direction 3 an invitation from the centre of the universe to slip focus softly into the pool of unself
• pain, like death, is meaningful, and so it must be co-opted by the world; through a) stagversive or charitable sympathy for the sick and the deprived and b) conditioning those privileged by the system to interpret 1) pain as a reason to wipe discomfort out with fame, narcotics or fun 2) tiny imperfections as a reason to upgrade tools, and 3) minute threats to certainty as a pretext to proliferate bureaucratic order, deathless, bio-fascist ‘safety’, oppressive law, terrifying security and the idolatrous worship of literal ‘life’
• the worst hell is painless
• antonym of suffering
phibulogmagog [fɪbjʊlɒɡməgɒɡ]
n a lie so massive, so outrageous, it does not need to be [officially] concealed or denied
primitive, primal [prɪmɪtɪv]
adj 1 original and mysterious humanity (before the world and underneath domestication) 2 vibe flares fired from the sea-wreckage of the ship of culture we once waltzed upon in dark combustible joy 3 the home we carry in our hearts
quog [kwɒg]
n 1 a magnificent falsehood, engineered in a nanosecond, falling from the tongue in glib, effortless perfection, while a tiny, distant part of your conscience whispers ‘you lie!’ 2 the fog of justification which descends when accused of a misdeed or when moved to recollect a wrongdoing (works like a magic vain fairground mirror, expanding favourable facts and shrinking or erasing inconvenient implications) 3 the brush-strokes of ego-time slowly covering the flowing sheets of memory with flecks of believable bullshit3
rubicon [ruːbɪkən]
n the point which you admit that something is annoying you and turn to deal with it
• the wise and the wonderful have extremely low rubicons
sacred, the [seɪkrɪd]
n useless darkness, an actually existing nothingness, a kind of agony, not what you want
sprunt [sprʌnt]
n one who 1 tells anecdotes that always seem to amount to his own wondrous excellences 2 cannot experience pleasure without congratulating himself 3 can’t undergo unpleasure without blaming someone else 4 admits to doubt, poor memory, low esteem, failing eyesight, awkwardness, clumsiness or phobias but never to being mean-spirited, inflexible, narrow-minded or lacking humour
• yes! you sir!
stagversion [stagvəːʃən]
n 1 futile protests (marches, petitions, votes, strikes, etc., etc.) or attempts to ‘change the world’ through participating in it 2 hating the system or moaning about it, blaming it for your vices or directing all your rebellious energy, first of all, at ‘them’ instead of at the ‘I’ that is sick or angry 3 cynically knowing that the world is a lie, or that its work is a prison, while wearily, sardonically, ironically participating in it 4 journalism and academic work that promotes literalism, ecoshism, feminism and racishism while working for a totalitarian, corp-funded university or newsmedia cult 5 technocratic [marxist] socialism; reforming society but keeping the machine intact 6 an anarcho-punk groupthink consumption of rebellion
• stagversion is not merely effortlessly subsumed by the world, the system actually requires it to effectively operate; for without the eco, feminist, ‘radical’, artistic, anarchic and philanthropic veneer created by stagversives (esp. journalists, but also independent academics, writers, bloggers and the like) the entire system would lie exposed and threatened
• a largely middle-class phenomenon
• antonym of subversion
tax [taks]
vb & n 1 ingenious means of forcing poor people to supply armies, support criminal financial institutions, pay bureaucrats and run up debts 2 armed robbery
truth [truːθ]
n 1 the non-factual and non-causal experience of the experiencer as the experienced 2 the conscious experience of what is actually happening, now 3 an intensely perceived seems-to-be 4 nothingness
• first of all absolute (because there is nothing in the universe that consciousness can ever possibly be compared to) then, according to context, duck-rabbit relative
• because the truth is both a) real everyday experience and b) the extraordinary experience of it, truthful accounts seem, to people having nowt but ordinary unexperiences of their own unreal lives, to be either threateningly bizarre or boringly obvious
• ego and the egoic world are extremely hostile to the truth and either completely ignore it, ridicule it out of awareness, co-opt it into a cult, reject it as illusory, relative, ridiculous, ‘mystical’ or ‘too deep for me!’ or, if the truth gets too close to the bones of the system, kill the source
• travels easily through time, with difficulty through space4
• unlikeable
unitree [juːnɪtriː]
vb to impersonate a tree so well that birds land on you
• the tree does not yes / does not know / but bruises / or provides / a plum
unhappy [ʌnhapi]
adj happy, unhappy, happy, unhappy, happy, unhappy…
verigag [vɛrɪgag]
n unconscious desire or truth manifesting as a feeble joke; normally of a sexually suggestive nature
wepth [cpθ]
vb & n 1 the weeping of silent, empty emotionless tears of total psychological rupture 2 shattered, void, torn open; and yet overwhelmed with an immense outpouring of unspeakable knowledge 3 rending your heart, sending love down through the centuries and bathing in the love of no-one yet living 4 devastating empathy for the condition of creatures in existence
yudo [juːdəʊ]
n the sublime art of making everyday gestures, ordinary gaits, tiny touches and tones of voices fully conscious, and therefore fully beautiful
• especially applies to all gestures that serve others
zum [zʌm]
n a vast relief-eliciting observation which voices everyone’s secret feeling
The Apocalypedia…
…is a scurrilous and lyrical countercultural a-z that illuminates self and society through a collection of flash-essays and comic vignettes, presenting an apocalyptically optimistic and deeply original understanding of human nature and of living, and living well, in a collapsing civilisation. It is horrendously unsettling, delightfully observant, mind-bendingly profound, strangely useful, lightly dip-in-able, heavily dense, horrendously offensive and a thing of design beauty.
Luc Koch over at luctalks described it as ‘beautifully radical, delightfully unpredictable, stimulatingly offensive.’ Ran Prieur said it ‘strikes again and again at the heart of the beast.’ Jeff Schmidt, author of the excellent ‘Professional Minds’ loved it, as did Galen Strawson, one of the few great philosophers living today. And here’s a brief selection of reader reports;
A veritable acid trip of a book... Totally original, totally… A vision of play and possibility, of poetry and of magic... profoundly insightful... when I share passages out of it with others, I feel like I’m spreading dangerous thoughts... expressive, poignant, powerful, an embodiment of a certain ideal and a certain earthiness that I can’t begin to put in words... Every line provokes oceans of reflection and contemplation... One of the wisest books I ever read... English would be the richest language in the world if it incorporated these words... Subversive, interesting, well-written and beautiful… extremely entertaining reading. Have not read anything like it before… There’s nothing like it…
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The paperback is available from most online bookshops, or you can order either edition directly from…
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The world is a metaphor for the ego and the earth is a metaphor for the self (and vice versa) as all great artists don’t merely ‘know’, but actually experience. The conscious man sees the roads and pavements of the world as the dead crust of his false self, and he sees their crumbling and collapse as his own liberation. He feels his true self as the tenacious alder, forcing its roots down between paving stones, towards the sensuous earthly nourishment it craves, while its leaves curl up towards the rarefied freedom it loves. He hears the silence of a forest of alders as the stillness and beauty of his own soul. He is inspired by weeds.
George Orwell.
Unlike falsehood, which, as Winston Churchill reminded us ‘gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on’, but which gets no further through time than a few years before falling down dead.